you guys i am in such a weird mood like i still can’t believe i graduated i am having a hard time grasping that concept and im super mad at myself for not being able to say bye to someone when i had the chance and now i will probably never see them again because i am an asshole and then my mom is getting surgery in exactly 1 week to remove the 3 benign tumors in her uterus but still she’ll be out for like 1 1/2-2 weeks after the surgery which is weird to think about too and i don’t know where i am really like all of these emotions are flying around when i should be the one flying around (because i wish i were a bird) i am just going to get some lemonade and contemplate the irrationality of human consciousness on my lawn
the seal in my icon is so versatile like it can show how happy i am or it can be passive aggressive or today it can look like it is laughing at me for being a dillweed
how am i supposed to enjoy my 3 months of summer when i can’t even take 3 steps without falling on the ground in despair because of how many opportunities i passed up in the last 2 days like do you know how hard it was going to the store just now but at least i have lemonade I WILL PROBABLY REGRET HAVING BOUGHT RASPBERRY AND NOT NORMAL IN A FEW HOURS ANYWAY THOUGH WTF
you guys today i did something so painfully reasonable that it was almost unreasonable like i feel like i should be given a medal or something for it which is unreasonable because you should be reasonable all the time but clearly i am not ever very reasonable so i am kind of surprised at myself for being the most reasonable i’ve been in a while when it would have been justified for me to be unreasonable this post doesn’t make any sense i know but i am just so surprised at myself wow
it’s weird how 4 years doesnt really seem like that long of a time but then when i think back to freshman year it seems like 40 years ago omfg like in the 9th grade i tried to be in this like little bubble of harmlessness where i was as unnoticeable as possible because everyone had to like me and then today i flipped off like 17 people that i don’t know just because i felt like it
time is weird
im so excited for summer you guys even though i know by like week 2 of june it’ll just be me sitting around eating noodles and watching things and playing video games w/e I AM JUST SO EXCITED THIS WILL BE THE FIRST SUMMER IN 30 YEARS THAT I HAVE NO SUMMER HOMEWORK AND ABSOLUTELY NOTHING I HAVE TO DO :-)
in chem today somehow like 1/3 of the class got on the subject of like how it is impossible to be “half naked” without looking slutty and it was so dumb i wanted to flip all of the desks in the room and start shouting but more than i am belligerent i am lazy so that did not work out
The only things I understand are related to having an haute GPA why can’t the world just accept that wtf why do feelings have to get in the way
I need to stop dwelling on stupid shit before I give myself a stroke what is my PrObLeM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
